comic

fix you

coldplay
listen to it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jBEYyHGbwto does it mean anything to you
can you relate
i can.............

Theres something missing

There's something missing.
Something that was taken away or never given
something that I desire
something I can't move on without
something just beyond my grasp
something, of a great importance
yet something of little importance
something that is just there and wont go away
like a thought or feeling
a feeling for something or someone
something thats just not right
a longing for that fullfillment
a desperate need
something my soul is begging and pleading for
something I know I might never have
something, that something thats missing
its still there taunting me, waiting for me to just touch it
for me to get great enough a glimpse of it to show me itself
waiting patiently, beyond those bars of reality
beyond your imagination,
beyond life
its there
waiting

Does it really matter?

Does it really matter anymore?
If it does why?
Why would you make that descision?
Why can't you see?
Why can't you see that I am trying
That I am better
That you'll ruin me
When its gone
Why can't you see?
Why are you blinded?
What is it that makes you ignorant to not listen to me?
Why are you taking this away from me?
Does it have to be that way?
Should I move on?
Or should I give up....
Just like you did on me.
-Derrick-

What the hell is going on in my life

To answer this question is impossible. I really don't know.
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Today........was a bad day, one of the few bad days I’ve ever had in my life, usually I'll say it was bad but really I don't mean it. But today was different, you know how you feel when your split between the LI and FE in life? Just in the middle of everything? When nothing goes your way, there’s no end in sight, and you can't see the beginning anymore, there’s no way out, and it dawns upon you. Your trapped, you can't get out, nothing is there. No ladder, no hope, trapped under the weight of life? Yes, that might just be how I'm feeling.
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To give you an idea this is what I think right now..
I don't know what I am, where i am, what I'm here for, what I'm supposed to do, will I ever? probably not.....and you know what...............that's just fine with me
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I feel like the train has left without me and there’s no way back home. Now I'm on my own, no comforts and only pains. Riding the roller coaster of life I guess. But right now I'm on the drop, and I can't see the end. Maybe it's a big drop, maybe my mind is just to clouded to see. I don't know, this is where it ends and all begins.
-Derrick-

New Years

Yea, yea its a new year, aren't you going to make a resolution? Well I'm going to try to make one but really, who ever follows one, for example, "I'm not going to eat unhealthy" guess what.....BULLSHIT! I'm sorry but it's just never going to happen people. If you really want to make a good resolution make it be something like this, --I'll try my best to _____________. Really people if you think you're going to do something that you think is hard, then don't say you will, just try. Even if you don't succeed, you tried and don't think that "O I said this and I'll have no problem keeping it." Truth is you probably can't if you make it too hard for yourself. For a New Years resolution, I'll just try to do my best and the things that can only help you. -D-